Life as it is right now

I am going to admit it. I am in a fog. Life has thrown us some pretty big curve balls the past few weeks. First the death of my father-in-law and the day following his service tragedy once again hit our family. We received word that our step niece's son passed away at the tender age of 9 1/2 months. Two unforeseen losses in such a short period of time. One completely unanswered for. I know death is inevitable but that doesn't make it easier ... especially when you don't feel as if you were able to provide a proper goodbye. I don't know the words to use to help comfort those I love and I am having a very difficult time praying about it. Gabrielle has been tender and overly concerned she is going to lose those she is close to. We dropped Quila at the vet for surgery the other day and she literally had a breakdown. She has asked multiple times if Daddy is going to die. How do you truly make a child understand that only God knows when it is our time? She has been making comments on how she wants to die and go to heaven to give Grandpa a hug. For now I will continue to be in a fog. This too will pass ... I will leave you with just a couple of photos.

This is the beautiful flower arrangement that our small group family sent in Dallas's memory. I love that it was displayed with his Rams memorabilia. He was a die hard Rams fan up to the last day.

Our family

The Hicks family